Autism,  Family,  mommyblog,  Parenting

Yes, I know she’s not wearing shoes!

If it’s cold outside, it’s just common sense that we put warm layers on: socks, shoes, a jacket and even some mittens. For most of us, all it takes us is a matter of minutes and we are ready to embrace the cold winds. For a child with autism and or sensory problems, this simple task can sudden become too much to handle.

I can’t count the times I’ve heard “do you know your baby doesn’t have shoes, socks, jacket etc on” or “it is way too cold for her not to be wearing pants.”

First of all, what kind of question is that? Yes, I obviously know she doesn’t have these items of clothing on, I’m not stupid. Also, I am well aware of what the temperature is. These kind of questions and remarks grind my gears. What’s worse are the evil glares I get as I carry my toddler wrapped in a blanket, wearing sometimes nothing other than a princess dress, with no warm attire on. They don’t even bother hiding the fact that they are going to stare you down all the way to/from your car and relentlessly judge you. So don’t even bother with your criticisms, judgy remarks, or really any comment pertaining to my child’s lack of apparel, because I assure you they are not wanted.

What you don’t know, is how hard I try each morning to get her to wear pants underneath her princess dress. You don’t know that I have to wrestle, pry, and use actual force to even try to get one shoe on her. What you don’t know is that brushing her teeth each morning, I have to lay her on the bed and straddle her. You don’t see how simply brushing her hair can be a Herculean task. You don’t hear the hysterical screaming, the relentless pleas, or the heartbreaking sobs.

What you don’t know is how nearly every time I try, or on the rare occasion that I succeed in getting shoes or a jacket on her, she is attempting to take them off within seconds. She is pleading with me, using the little words she does know, to take these items off of her. You don’t know that on these really bad days, this simple act will completely destroy her day. You don’t see how this sweet beautiful little girl will be beside herself, tensing her ENTIRE body and shrieking at the top of her lungs, because she can not stand the feeling of wearing these things.

What you don’t know is that we work day in and day out, using various therapeutic techniques to help her.

What you don’t know is that we base our entire day and errands on whether or not she is going to be ok doing it.

What you don’t know is that I have cried myself to sleep too many nights, just wishing I could help her. Hoping that we can have a day, an outing, anything without her losing all control.

You don’t know that we have come so far in speech, only to take a few steps back whenever she has a bad sensory day.

You don’t see how excited we are, when we have a day where we can brush her teeth without holding her down. When we can slip on some shoes or a jacket or even pants without having a scream fest.

You don’t know or see these things, because you don’t care to. All you see is me carrying an innocent child into a building, wrapped up in a blanket. All you see is a terrible mom, neglecting her child when its 32 or below out. All you do is judge, comment or snark. You make your assumptions and then you label me as lazy, or neglectful.

I will have you know that I am none of those things. I am my child’s biggest advocate and I will continue to tell her story, in hopes that judgy people like yourself will think before you blurt out some hurtful comment. I am her protector against people like you. I will continue to try each and every day, until one day we are able to do all these things meltdown-free. Should that day ever come, it will truly be one of the best days ever. Until then, I refuse to put her through so much stress, just to avoid your rude remarks and stares.

I refuse to punish her because I’m, too ashamed to take her out in public.

Although the judgment hurts, in the end I could care less what anyone thinks. I know that those beautiful eyes staring back at me are happy and healthy. I know they are loved fiercely by a family who would do ANYTHING for that little girl.

All I ask, is that for all my readers to take a moment and educate yourselves on autism and sensory processing disorder. These are disorders that affect so many people, in so many different ways. Things that you assume are simple tasks, such as brushing your teeth or getting dressed, suddenly become an obstacle as high as Mt. Everest, to someone so small. Take a moment to spread the word.

Most importantly before you ask a mother if she knows her child isn’t wearing shoes, please remember this article. Please take a moment to consider that there is probably a reason behind the lack of clothing. Better yet, just assume that your comments are unwanted.


  • Mommy Dearest

    First of all you know how proud of you I am every moment of every day!! You are my biggest Hero. My grandchildren are so very lucky and blessed to have you for their Mother. You are a fierce advocator for them and heaven help anybody who gets in your way-or the way of your children. Having said all that, I am most proud at this moment of your ability to educate others on Autism and acceptance of all people. This world is so quick to judge others and mothers seem to get the worst of it. You go Girl! Remember this Mommy always has your back.

  • Beth

    Your daughter is so lucky to have you making the adjustments she needs! It seems quite frustrating that you have to deal with the judgment of strangers! I remember bristling once when my neighbor told me that my kids weren’t dressed warmly enough for Halloween (they were wearing warm sweatshirts under their costumes.) As a teacher and a mom, I always tried to remember that every person does the best they can, and we don’t need to know WHY certain choices are made, but we do need to respect the people making them. I’ve seen kids without shoes on in the winter and never really questioned it because I could tell that they were well loved and healthy.

  • Gervin Khan

    This is such a nice article to read and be well informed about. Autism as you mentioned is not easy as like brushing our teeth it’s a tedious task to handle but with a big heart.

  • Liz

    Way to go mom! Your daughter is so blessed and loved. I’m an autism therapist and you’re my favorite type of parent I like to work with, the ones that advocate, love fiercely and do the best they can even though it’s so hard. One thing I like, at least in the practice I work in is the shift in how we approach therapy. When I first got into this field therapy focused on how can we confirm kids with autism to the world around them. We now focus on how can we embrace the individual for who they are and help them navigate their world without having to put them in a box. If wearing a dress without pants is the outfit of the day great. If it’s cold out but they don’t feel cold that’s great. Thank you for educating us.

  • Czjai Reyes-Ocampo

    My friend has a child who has the same condition, and I know how difficult and hurtful it could be to hear such questions and comments from other people. Do not mind them. You are a wonderful mom, and the one who understands your daughter the most.

  • Christa

    I’m so sorry you have to deal with so much judgment in addition to everything else you have to navigate in a day. I hope that everyone can be more understanding and supportive as we learn and grow.

  • Amy-Lynn Denham

    I have to say that I see both sides of this coin. Firstly, it is never OK for anyone to speak down to you or to treat your poorly, especially without all the facts. If done with respect, though, I actually think it’s good for other people to speak up if they think a child might be being mistreated. I know you struggle and work your ass off to get your daughter what she needs and that you have to pick your battles and slowly work up to certain things. Of course, though, someone random on the street or in the store may not know that. If there was no sensory issue and you simply didn’t have the money or didn’t care enough (there are parents like that, unfortunately) I think it’s actually good that people don’t turn a blind eye when a child is in need of help. Again, when done appropriately and with respect, not with accusation or judgement. You really drive home the point that we don’t know what is going on in someone else’s life. Who the hella re we to judge without the facts, right?

  • Nandita

    You’re one of the very few people I’ve seen who are this grounded & clear about what matters & what doesn’t. Respect. I think every parent has experienced unapproving stares & judging comments by random strangers without these people knowing or caring to know the back story. It’s easy to criticize a thing not done properly than it’s to appreciate what has been done.
    – Nandita

  • Lms

    As a parent myself with an autistic daughter. The key is to educate people about your child and to be an advocate. The stares and the ignorance can get annoying. Mine too has sensory processing disorder . It does get better as they get older .

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